i love summer. i lvoe life california and summer.

europe and asia and pac-islands trip....5. days.....im going in saaaaaane

(:

thats baiscally it. im tired and i dont wanna upload....

summer so far has been bitchy drama freeeeeeeeee !! (: makes me happy

<3 all

if that isn't the hottest sexiest manliest most beautiful and gorgeous man you have ever seen....

then maybe this?

gooodness me!!.

well hey it's summemr and im goin insane with this whole "take it easy" thing...im gonna paint today..let my "artsy style" go free.

and then leave

Later

whenever i think about making art a career or anything close to that, i feel underconfident and i get this weird feeling in my stomache like the kind you get when you see someone you like. i feel queasy. but why? i'm always happy about things i do but when there's good competition i back down. well i don't want to back down this time i think i should go through with it, but i dont know how. i'll feel like this for a while and i just want to quit but there's got to be SOME time where i stop quitting things. i quit keyboard, i really don't care that much. my mom told me to take classes AGAIN today so twice today that i've been nagged. so tomorrow i sign up. why do i put myself through things i don't want to do? i'm going to implode.

Dilemma: so... i like a really hot boy. not just any boy, the cutest boy [that i have had a "little crush" on since... the 8th grade]. i don't realy know what to do because usually i don't like the boy and he'll approach me but nowwww....different story.i dont know whatt the heff to DOOOOO. nervosity, trembling, quivering...butterflies... so it's definately happening...

I hope i can figure it out .

gaaaaah i dont understand what to doooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

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if anyone has read the play "Inherit The Wind," it's a great play. i don't think anything's ever made me laugh out loud while reading... if you're a sarcastic person and you dont believe in holy-things, read this book !

Bright Eyes was last night ... i did not attend but i heard it was sensational.

i am so happy my life is "in order" and i'm feeling queazy and weird again

it's a boy, i know it, it has to be about a boy..

(:

mae is my life's love-story

and i love being able to feel ... especially all that is you.